This past month has been full of emotions, my family and friends who i thought were close have turned there backs on me! The bible says its getting close to the "End times," I pray and hope I still have time left!

OK let me first start off my introducing you to my family. I have an older brother named Josh, He's 20 and has a siezure disorder. He's not all there in the head but can still make decisions from right and wrong! I have a little brother named Michael he's 17 will turn 18 in May. My mother is "a Mother" but she was never there for me, or my brothers, so I guess i dont "feel" comfortable calling her "mom" we can call her Melissa. There is also this girl named Shawna, she is my best friend among anyone! But Shawna and Michael are "going together" so you would imagine how hard it is for me to be her "best friend" Having to hear all the "secrets" all the "stories" But ive done it i wouldnt have my Best Friend and my brother be with anyone else, there both "Good People." Shawna recentley moved to Texas with her parents. She was 17, When she turned 18 they told her she could not come back to NM. This upset Shawna and she began to rebel, I was called in the middle of the night, Shawna was crying and told me that her father had "tried something,"  Me and my Husband believed Shawna we had no reason not to! I told Shawna she needed to get away, not to stay there in the midst of there family problems, she listened and came to NM. Me and my husband met her in Texas when she called and said she was lost and didnt know where to go. (why) Because thats what friends do. I dont take RAPE..or "He Tried" lightly! I was raped when i was 13yrs old!   And my father "tried" but my grandparents i have to thank helped me! So when Shawna told me "He Tried" there was no question in my mind i had to help her get back to NM!!!! Now was this wrong? I dont think so, I told her to tell her Mother, "I said she may or she may not believe you, but u do need to try." She said "I did and she dont believe me." So we went to Texas and brought Shawna back. Meanwhile My little brother is messing around on Shawna. Shawna's been here for almost 2 weeks and Michael has come to see her 3 times! She says " I think he's cheating on me and i want to know the truth!!!"  So i told her "we'll find out!" Now is this (Brother Sister betrayel?) I dont know. I feel bad, But i dont I put this girl in my house, I fed this girl, all for my brother! He repays me with this! We caught my brother with this other girl twice. The last time was the time Shawna said "Its over I want all my stuff Im going back to Texas!" So we go to Melissa's house and she opens the door, says Michaels not here hes with his "Guy Friends" DOES NOT INVITE US IN!!!! Her own daughter! So we leave...But we didnt leave completley! We waited off her property untill Michael showed up! He jumped out of the car with another girl! Shawna and I broke out in tears! after crying for a while she asked me "Please get my things from your mothers house so we can just go!" I went!! Melissa answered the door and asked "What do you want?" I simply asked for Shawnas things, I turned around towards Shawna and i seen cop lights and she was standing there in tears two officers had lights in her face questioning her. I turned back toward Melissa and said "You called the cops on me???" My older brother Josh loaded a 30-06 cocked it and put his finger on the trigger! Now for those of you who dont know what it is! Its a damn big gun~!!! Josh said "Get off my property" and i hauled some serious ass! The cops stated, they got a call that I was Vandalizing cars and property out there! i hadnt touched anything! When i told the officers about the gun they told me to leave. Anyway I got back home and made a report with the Sheriffs. So in the end i thought it all worked out. ( Do you press charges on "your family") I said no, But should i have? Shawna left to another friends house that night, and came back to mine the next morning everything was fine between me and her! Except when i talked to Michael my little brother he asked "Why'd you tell Shawna that if she didnt move out of your house you'd shoot her?" OMG Shawnas my best friend i was hurt that my little brother was cheating on her i kept her here at my house i cared for her i loved her like my sister! "She said WHAT??"

          I havent talked to her since then I dont know wheres shes at If she's still here in town! I dont know what to say anymore im tired. I started crap with MY family because i cared about this girl! And she repays me and my husband with that kind of lie? WOW  All i can say is, Watch who you trust! Someone may not always be who they say they are. Dont lie to the ones you trust the most! Last but not least, DONT CHEAT!